© 2020 Margie Houlston

Self-Destruction (black paint), 2016

Overview

Self-Destruction is a project focusing on the ruination of self-portraits in a collection of different mediums. The idea of obliterating a painting with black paint was to portray this notion of destruction. The colour black is often symbolises darkness and evil in comparison to white representing good. The choice to wear black (be it a rebellious teenager, fashion guru or business woman/man) can signify a lack of emotion. For example, a female dressed in a black dress may be seen as sophisticated but less approachable and more hostile. Similarly, a rebellious teenager wearing all black can appear unapproachable as well as emotionally ‘tortured’. The portrait contrasts with the black by the use of bright, vibrant colours to represent a bubbly, loud and fun personality; whereas, the black paint represents depression, self-hate and low self-esteem which can consequently cause self-destruction.

Self-Destruction

[self-di-struhk-shuh n]

n. the destruction of oneself or one's life.

Example: 'She was afraid of not being enough; not good enough, not smart enough, not pretty enough. So she fell through the acts of self-destruction. Passively allowing opportunities to pass by, not valuing her worth, sabortaging relaionships, avoiding social interactions, hiding her emotions and refusing help until soon she was a shell of herself. And the damage was done.'

Self-Destruction Workbook